I should update my blog, like, srsly.

Like, i'm not kidding kind of srsly.

Well... what to say...

well the past wee was cf... but i think its kinda late to blog about that, but anyway

GENERAL FEELING THROUGH OUT CF

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8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

and

<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333!

cuz everyone was so omigosh nice and really cool ;w; like really cool and awesome 8DDDD it was fun , fun fun.

lol i was really quiet there.............. SORTA... cuz most of the time i was having a headache and my feet were hurting and i was hungry... i know i complained alot... i felt bad..

I'm really really lazy to blog at this point, actually, i don't feel like typing? ... my fanfic is just... lying there... abandoned... e_____e

(i DO know how to spell seriously okay?? plsthxbai)

I'm drawing tons... more than i should... ahahhaaha.... e____e

still waiting for all the pics to be posted

and... pmr results is tommorrow

AND GUESS WHAT

i'm still not feeling the panic/anxious/depression/ LSDJLSKDJSKLLDSJLSD

BD

Making sense of me wasting my time.

Wasting my time, as in, rotting.

YES. Ever since the last post I. Have. Been. Rotting. Ever. Since. The. Last. Post.

e____o i feel like going insane. Genuinely, insane. I don't Rot! I'm always around doing stuff and i always have things to do. Actually. I still do! but for some reason i don't feel like reading, drawing, writing, STUDYING or playing GE/Call Of Duty (got some new games the other day) FFFFFFFFF... ;A;

I'm gonna kurai if this keeps going.

Oh and add making a puffin plushie to the list-thing above.

ffff...

well... good news is. i finished watching House MD :D so yeah ohohohohhhh Amber you bytch <3

And Chase with a kangaroo! 8D how kiut is that? 8D ............ well he was drunk-and-at-a-bachelors-party-with-a-bunch-of-hookers.

e_____e

a kangaroo!!! 8D

so yeah back to going genuinely insane, okay writing, i managed to push myself to write another 1000 words or so for the past 2 days e____e so yeah you can call it progress. but i don't. Its not QUICK progress anyway.

Reading? I don't wanna talk about that.

Don't.

I feel like crying every time i'm reminded of that.

Drawing... well i've finished the pic i was working on (more or less) ( DEN FINALLY OBEYED :D ) but other that that, no improvement or any drawing frenzies of the sort. maybe... i should try drawing more than one chara on one page, i should practice drawing more interaction... and clothes... and weapons... and... more interaction (fighting scenes in particular e___o)

I miss drawing horses...

I should draw them more.

*sniff*

Hmmm studying? okay i got started but i space out after like 3 mins. So... not werking.

Don't get me wrong! I really wanna get started on add math and math and history (TEEHEE <3)

but... i can't seem to focus...

what else... nah i don't feel like ranting about anything else.

GE is going great btw (TWITCH)

Dad said i couldn't focuse because i had to many things to do. I can't focus.

I should pioritize.

....

i don't think i can bear doing that...

i 'm sure it's just a phase... it'll go away ... the part that I WANT TO TRY EVERYTHING :DDDD

I wanna take violin next year.

...... Roooootttttiiiiinnnnggggg... aaaaghhhhhhh...

Okay not exactly 'Rotting' .... i am mildly amused, at the moment.

Lurking around this site i found , Sparknotes its really awesome... and amusing to read what people come up with to get through school which immediately equals to -->Useful :D

So anyway... this will be a small post, Bucky came home today, with a like 1 inch stitch on her belly e____o

actually i've got tones of things to say, but my mind is rationalizing that i should get back to writing that chapter.

fff

oh and... GE is getting frustrating -TWITCH-

[useless post is useless]

ffff sorry for the non-update... Ge has officially sucked my soul into its deep dark abyss....

so anyway right now i'm like typing on my sis's computer while wwatching my game
SRSLY... these kids..they-just-can't-do anything-without-me.

I turn around for one second and they're dead. God.

ehh... its prolly my fault for being to stingy to get them higher lvled armours and weaps.


:D


anyway back to the real blog, right now lyfe is kinda montonous for me. Kinda. its like... play GE in the morning, write/draw in the afternoon, nap in the evening watch telly after dinner then sleep.

speaking of writing, i haven't REALLY progressed with the second chapter, 9___9 Denaho is being hard to write, and i keep feeling im using the wrong voice for him.... hmmmm... maybe i should write a couple of Denmark centric drabbles to get the voice right. maybe.

FUCK . .... my kids died again.

srsly.... dammit.

so anyway while waiting for them to get back up again i got a good 104 seconds to blog.

where was i? oh. right.

i should really get a move on with the - and they died again.

fff... stupid pirate leader...

yeah the chapter. it's been sitting there for like 10 days now... mghhhhh

i'll get to it i'll get to it.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOkay.

ehhhhh...~ its so dark ... and it's only 5 30... its raining again...

well right now i'm being plvled by Remy on GE. Eden logged out for some reason... DC maybe. idk. THe faction i'm in is real nice i like all the people here.

GE, as in Granado Espada. Marr, Xan, i blame you for this. This game is stealing my soul D8 dammit, i want to finish writing also ... ehhh... i can't open up any programs while GE is up, it kinda crashes my comp, right now its okay i'm using Google Chrome for this, limiting my tabs hahahaah and i'm being plvled so its okay if i leave it up, i don't think i'll get killed xDDD

Level 26 now \o/

Anyway GE is real awesome, I LOVE THE GRAPHICS, THE BACKGROUNDS AND AND THE DESIGNSSSS OMG DESIGNS FOR THE ARMOUR AND COSTUMES AND THE NPCs !!

Okay... sometimes it is a bit what the fuuuucckk???

but yeah its real awesome! I'll put some screenshots here later, maybe. (i'm going printscreen crazy in this game!)

I also took some pics of us at school just now, and i'll take more tommorrow, i guess...

Reminds me, i gotta hunt for some markurs to vandalize Marr's uniform.

Last day of school!!!

;A;

Oh and i haven't been writing ever since i started GE.... fuuuuccckkkkk TAT

About Today.

So yeah i went out to Sunway with Zet, Susu, Papa, and Bridget. All i can say about it was.

MY FEET FUCKIN HURTS.

;w; 4 hours of non stop walking/standing/running/going in circles, so YEAH ;A;

I know if you go like "It's only 4 hours! i've done 13++"

If you do i want to tell you that i don't go shopping often , and that you have no life <3

So yeah. I finished the 200+ my parents gave me , 20 for lunch the rest for clothes , ice cream, cookies, and this really cool bloby goo stuff. ITS SO COOL AHHHH <333333333333333

I only got like 3 shirts for myself, I got 2 for Xan and Marr. hahhaa xDDD i hope you'll like them, i'll bring them on Monday. When i saw the t shirts i was like "I GOTTA GET THIS FOR XAN/MARR" so yeah. dropped it at the cashier and paid.

So came home, my aunt dragged me into discussing the Science P2 questions.

Sakit hati.

;w;

She showed me the papers from this Terengganu rural school, (So she says) and i really pity the people there, it's like they didn't get over 32/60. so yeah. Average normal score is like, 10/60. It's really sad. THE ENTIRE SCHOOL.

Like seriously.

One of them even wrote at the end of the paper, "Oh God, Please let this examiner be nice" <- In Malay of course. None of them answered the paper in English, If they answered any of the questions at all.

Then my dad came home, so as like any best-friend/daughter i talked to him about my day.

"How was your day?"

"Tiring"

"What did you get"

"A couple of clothes. Some cookies and clothes."

"Why did you get 5?"

"Oh well i only got 3 for me. the other 2 are for xan and marr"

"What? Did you use your own money?"

"ummm no? I used the money you gave me?"

"why you use my money? i gave you the money for you to use not for anyone else"

".......... right. *leaves the room*"

So yeah. WHYYY???!! WHY DOES HE LIKE HAVE TO . Stab. I WAS BEING THOUGHTFUL... and nice... I WAS BEING A FRIEND.

It wasn't like i was letting my self be taken advantage of.

I would know if i was taken advantage of )<

So yeah, i was being a friend. ;w;

pfff but anyway i have an excuse! i used my mom's money to buy the stuff for you two, and not my dad's so don't worry xDDDDD ... i also probably used my own saved pocket money. and Bridget chipped in to pay for the shirts too, so 8DDDD

*pat pat*

I hope you like the shirts anyway.

oh and the sushi we ate for lunch was awesome, WE KEPT THE TOTAL OF THE WHOLE LUNCH UNDER 100. (87.80 to be exact... without tax >3>)

Ready and Set.

All right you pesky chapter, bring it onnnn...

I decided to go back to my first chapter and prune and recheck and read it, so geehhh i'll be a while till i'm ready to post it up anywhere. Damn my perfectionist quirks ;A; huwaaaaiii huwaaaaiiiii *shakesfist*

anyway, i chose and confirmed that i wanted to go for Greece next year for CF, cuz hes costume is easy to make, i'll probably be stealing his boots and hat from Switzy BD so yeah i'll probably have to learn to sew to make his kitten plushies . he has real cats, but you can't expect me to bring mmy cats to CF could you? they don't allow pets in anyway.

I wanna make a cat plushi tied to a transparent/black hairband so that i have a kitty on my head 8D

right now the only problem i have with Heracles (Greece) is his hair. or my hair. i dunno if i should chop and trim my hair to be like his. I could. but over the years (a year actually) my hair became less wavy and now its not wavy enough to be his hair. so i'll probably end up buying a wig. possibly ;w;

oh and i got a Sadiq! (Turkey)

Kappy agreed to become my papa so i happy. I've got a buddy/photoshoot partner for next yearrrr!! 8D even though i don't really support any Turkey pairings with any other guy, (I DO NOT APPROVE AT ALL ;w;) i will make sure my cosplay as Greece be as close to the real thing as possible (won't be hard! i fall asleep and space out easily) and make sure that i have this annoyed face whenever kappy - Turkey is around.

No kissy kissy or floof stuffings like that.

Fuck no thank you.

Now i want an Egypt. so that the Mediterranean family will be complete! ... oh and a TRNC too if possible.... both of these ppls are short though. Especially TRNC... we need a kid to do him. like. i real kid. short, cute and a kid. A kid.

I Wonder if i could get my siste- no. TRNC looks really quiet ... i don't think she'll do. e___e definitely not.

Nothing ever goes according to plan does it?

okay woke up, said to myself "I WILL SLEEP AT SCHOOL" cuz i only had like what? 5 hours of sleep? so yeah. my Epul and everything in the bag ready to sleep! went to school and okay slept for like 10 mins and then i felt like playing Speed so i did.

Kappy brought Monopoly so i thought okay sure fine. play play play. only for one game though, the next i was the banker. (the freakin game lasted for nearly 2 hours... might've been more). after that we kene halau by teacher from the class.

We played Uno stacko then snap then donkey then that chinese poker <- this reapeated for more than an hour until the school bell rang so yeah.

NO SLEEP.

Bagus sangat.

And i don't feel like sleeping tonight. srsly. although i know i should.

gaahhh

so yeah, yesterday my harmonia shitaka akiko album finished downloading and YES!

so i spent like 3 whole hours listening to it.

IT WAS AWESOME. I WENT LIKE TEHHHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS GUUD ITS GUUUUDDDD *drrooooollll*

now all that's left to do for this is to find and romajinize the lyrics 8DDDDDDD *shot'd* It's harder than it sounds.... it's tiring... time consuming... frustrating whenever word doesn't want to obey the ctrl + v ;A;

Its so cool so cool so cooooooll~~!!! <3333333333333!!!

imma go download more i think... after my internet gets fixed... it's so slow =.=

yeah right now i don't feel like writing anything... so yeah i'll probably post here again later. before i sleep. maybe.

Okay first proper post.

I'm being serious here, no babblings or anything like that.

Okay recently i've been having this problem, a problem that i just. yeah. I don't know what my problem is but i feel like i do have one. Well... its like when you want to say something and the word/sentence just won't come out. No that's not my problem i speak just fine. I say what i'm thinking. but take the whole sentences nto coming out thing as a metaphor for my problem.

I just don't know what it is.

But i feel like i have one.

[sigh]

anyway i went to visit my granma at the hospital last night, I LOVE PINEAPPLE TARTS! there was like a whole box of it. just.sitting.there. so i kind aate the whole bunch while my mum was massaging my granma.

and I finnally got round to writing the story line draft thing for my fanfic....... WELL, AT LEAST I STARTED. so i'm happy.

OMG LIKE LAST NIGHT i was looking through the video-audio things on YT for shitaka akiko (I THINK THATS HOW YOU SPELL HER NAME) and her music is like - well it made me go YYIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII HGAHAHHAAHAH YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD *squee squee squee*

so now i really can't wait for her album to finish downloading (75.9% come on baby i know you can do it! ;w;) (Torrent files suck.)

It seems like i'm going out this Sunday... dammit. e____e it's not like its a bad thing though.

I HAVE BI POLAR DISORDER THING.

That's it.

That's my problem.

okay i definetly should calm down.

Maybe i'll learn yoga from my mum or... something....

peaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaacceeee of mind.

peaaaaaaaaaaaaaccceeeeee of minda.

keteeeenaangannnnnnnnn jiwa.

wtf?

[This post turned out to be rambles again didn't it?]

Figuring things out.

......... I NEVER DID GET THIS WHOLE BLOG HTML THING e________e

okay a few years ago i was able to do html, but i've forgotten how to now...

mm... i want to use the free templates that i found, but i'd rather do it my self. YES. I LIKE TO SUSAHKAN MYSELF. e______e

well, right now i'm downloading Shinedown, while waiting for this bigass file album to finish downloading *DAMN YOU TORRENT DDDD8 SO SLOOOWWW*

i'm also supposed to continue playing speed with my bro but i wanna finish this one first.

I'm supposed to be writing my fanfic right now...

e___e 700 words that i'm not happy of, i'm probably gonna rewrite it again. DENAHO WHY MUST YOU BE SO HARD TO WRITE !!! ;w;

okay honestly this feel awkward writing this without yeah... idk i'm rambling. so yeah it feels awkward to ramble (?) ;w;

my bookmarks on safari are in a mess... i need to reorganize them

i need to reorganize my computer

for some reason my internet is running slower now.

e__e must be the torrentz... hopefully ;w;

OKAY, I MADE A BLOG.

I hope you guys are happy now.

Learning about all my thoughts when i'm not around you guys.

=.="""

stalkers.