Making sense of me wasting my time.

Wasting my time, as in, rotting.

YES. Ever since the last post I. Have. Been. Rotting. Ever. Since. The. Last. Post.

e____o i feel like going insane. Genuinely, insane. I don't Rot! I'm always around doing stuff and i always have things to do. Actually. I still do! but for some reason i don't feel like reading, drawing, writing, STUDYING or playing GE/Call Of Duty (got some new games the other day) FFFFFFFFF... ;A;

I'm gonna kurai if this keeps going.

Oh and add making a puffin plushie to the list-thing above.

ffff...

well... good news is. i finished watching House MD :D so yeah ohohohohhhh Amber you bytch <3

And Chase with a kangaroo! 8D how kiut is that? 8D ............ well he was drunk-and-at-a-bachelors-party-with-a-bunch-of-hookers.

e_____e

a kangaroo!!! 8D

so yeah back to going genuinely insane, okay writing, i managed to push myself to write another 1000 words or so for the past 2 days e____e so yeah you can call it progress. but i don't. Its not QUICK progress anyway.

Reading? I don't wanna talk about that.

Don't.

I feel like crying every time i'm reminded of that.

Drawing... well i've finished the pic i was working on (more or less) ( DEN FINALLY OBEYED :D ) but other that that, no improvement or any drawing frenzies of the sort. maybe... i should try drawing more than one chara on one page, i should practice drawing more interaction... and clothes... and weapons... and... more interaction (fighting scenes in particular e___o)

I miss drawing horses...

I should draw them more.

*sniff*

Hmmm studying? okay i got started but i space out after like 3 mins. So... not werking.

Don't get me wrong! I really wanna get started on add math and math and history (TEEHEE <3)

but... i can't seem to focus...

what else... nah i don't feel like ranting about anything else.

GE is going great btw (TWITCH)

Dad said i couldn't focuse because i had to many things to do. I can't focus.

I should pioritize.

....

i don't think i can bear doing that...

i 'm sure it's just a phase... it'll go away ... the part that I WANT TO TRY EVERYTHING :DDDD

I wanna take violin next year.

[useless post is useless]

ffff sorry for the non-update... Ge has officially sucked my soul into its deep dark abyss....

so anyway right now i'm like typing on my sis's computer while wwatching my game
SRSLY... these kids..they-just-can't-do anything-without-me.

I turn around for one second and they're dead. God.

ehh... its prolly my fault for being to stingy to get them higher lvled armours and weaps.


:D


anyway back to the real blog, right now lyfe is kinda montonous for me. Kinda. its like... play GE in the morning, write/draw in the afternoon, nap in the evening watch telly after dinner then sleep.

speaking of writing, i haven't REALLY progressed with the second chapter, 9___9 Denaho is being hard to write, and i keep feeling im using the wrong voice for him.... hmmmm... maybe i should write a couple of Denmark centric drabbles to get the voice right. maybe.

FUCK . .... my kids died again.

srsly.... dammit.

so anyway while waiting for them to get back up again i got a good 104 seconds to blog.

where was i? oh. right.

i should really get a move on with the - and they died again.

fff... stupid pirate leader...

yeah the chapter. it's been sitting there for like 10 days now... mghhhhh

i'll get to it i'll get to it.

Ready and Set.

All right you pesky chapter, bring it onnnn...

I decided to go back to my first chapter and prune and recheck and read it, so geehhh i'll be a while till i'm ready to post it up anywhere. Damn my perfectionist quirks ;A; huwaaaaiii huwaaaaiiiii *shakesfist*

anyway, i chose and confirmed that i wanted to go for Greece next year for CF, cuz hes costume is easy to make, i'll probably be stealing his boots and hat from Switzy BD so yeah i'll probably have to learn to sew to make his kitten plushies . he has real cats, but you can't expect me to bring mmy cats to CF could you? they don't allow pets in anyway.

I wanna make a cat plushi tied to a transparent/black hairband so that i have a kitty on my head 8D

right now the only problem i have with Heracles (Greece) is his hair. or my hair. i dunno if i should chop and trim my hair to be like his. I could. but over the years (a year actually) my hair became less wavy and now its not wavy enough to be his hair. so i'll probably end up buying a wig. possibly ;w;

oh and i got a Sadiq! (Turkey)

Kappy agreed to become my papa so i happy. I've got a buddy/photoshoot partner for next yearrrr!! 8D even though i don't really support any Turkey pairings with any other guy, (I DO NOT APPROVE AT ALL ;w;) i will make sure my cosplay as Greece be as close to the real thing as possible (won't be hard! i fall asleep and space out easily) and make sure that i have this annoyed face whenever kappy - Turkey is around.

No kissy kissy or floof stuffings like that.

Fuck no thank you.

Now i want an Egypt. so that the Mediterranean family will be complete! ... oh and a TRNC too if possible.... both of these ppls are short though. Especially TRNC... we need a kid to do him. like. i real kid. short, cute and a kid. A kid.

I Wonder if i could get my siste- no. TRNC looks really quiet ... i don't think she'll do. e___e definitely not.